Growing up..

Not so long ago I've witnessed some teenagers doing stupid things to other teenagers and adults. I was mad at them at the time but seeing that I can't do anything about it, I just walk away from it.. actually I continued my surveillance not so far away from there. What they did is utterly unacceptable! When I think back, I'm still angry!! Wanna know what they did? Okay!

It was the night of 30th August.. eve of Merdeka Day.. and when the clock strikes 12a.m, those teenagers starts throwing fire crackers in the middle of where the crowds are.. and to make it worse, they even throw some firecrackers at the people sitting at a club nearby.. it was annoying and the clubs officials and safety personnel come to settle down the teenagers but they didn't listen to them.. they even provoke the officials by pushing them.. I was at the 3rd floor at that time and the incident happened on the ground.. while the others were harassing the officials, I saw this one teen throwing a firecracker at the officials and holding his hand up in the air like he just won something.. hey! it's very stupid!! I saw everything from up there and I can 100% conclude that it's very stupid!

Remembering back when I was a teenager.. I never saw anyone at my age or generation doing that kind of stuff.. yeah we have done some stupid things but not as far as that.. and we only do stupid things to ourselves but never to anyone else.. what makes me sad is that they picked Merdeka Day to do that kind of stuff. So then I express my feelings towards their action in FB .. I post it on my status box and there's this certain someone who thinks that what the teenagers done was not really stupid.. and I shouldn't call them stupid.. ??????? .... really!!???? why?? because you were like that or are you still acting like that? Does that means that you're getting older but you think that you are still that young to be acting like that? For me, you're one of them! For whoever think that what they did wasn't that bad obviously you never think about how would it be if you were the one thats been receiving a shower of firecrackers and a bunch of teen pushing you around!! Let's see if you can handle that!!! This certain someone always act like a rebel.. and that certain someone is already 20+ years old.. how can you support such action??

Maturity is not measured by age.. when your brain start to develop the way of thinking as others, you will understand what is the meaning of being mature.. If you don't want to be considered as grown ups or adults it's fine but please let your shell be the kid on not your brains.. You still can act like teenagers but not like that.. not harassing others.. wear what teens wear.. listen to songs what teens listen to.. play what teens play .. talk like teens do .. or even write like them.. but don't act like that.. harassing others is not even in teenagers daily routine or weekly or monthly.. it's the work of criminals!! yeah I did say those teenagers are stupid but I never said that teenagers are stupid!! Don't be confused! Read it back to back and understand what I mean before making any comments on it! Don't misunderstand what I mean.. saying that "teenagers are stupid" is not the same as "THOSE teenagers are stupid!" .. the word "THOSE" indicates that I was referring to the teenagers who was doing that.. But if that certain someone thinks that what the teenagers done back then was acceptable... then it means the certain someone is just as stupid as them..

You're not getting younger..

Why can't I live my life like I want to?

It's been a long time since my last post here.. I have some complications with some people who claimed to be my "friend" but acting like assholes.. The one that I hate the most has to be the hypocrites.. pretending to care for others. I actually don't really care about them, I never think of them as my friend anymore but I never told them that.. I never did anything to clarify that they're less than anything that I care about. I let the doors open for them.. I can be cruel but for what? I will not gain anything from being cruel.. I can forgive but to forget about things like that is like I don't have any dignity. We learn from mistakes and certain occasion.. the events that we will remember the most is the ones that affected us emotionally or physically. We may call it trauma but what's the point of continuing this life when you don't learn from that? For example, you know a man who continuously borrow cash from others including you but never pay for it.. would you lend money to him again? Most will refuse and others will lend but with reasons.. but lets say that there's no reason whatsoever? Of course no one will lend any money to him again.. It's the way of living.. It's the way of growing.. We learn from that and we will be aware of things like that in the future. Same goes to that so-called friends of mine. They did something that hurt me a lot.. not once, not twice.. I always let the doors open for them and I always insist that they tell me everything thats bothering them.. related to me of course.. but their stupidity is just unbelievable!! Imagine this, I'm sitting in the living room playing with my laptop without bothering anyone.. and suddenly someone told me that I'm in a bad mood or I'm angry with some friend.. WTF!! I'm just minding my own business damn it!! I'm sitting quietly is a sign of anger to someone?? sign of bad mood?? well congratulation to whoever figure that out just by looking at me sitting down playing with my laptop.. you must but a psychic or something because I am angry, I am in a bad mood.. not while sitting down and minding my own business but after knowing the stupid accusation. I am nobody! Why bother figuring out what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling?? I'm not bothering you!!

The quality of friends I want is not the kind who wants to know everything about me.. because I'm not gonna marry my friends! The one who should know everything about me is my future wife.. Friends, I know you care.. but if you really think that you're doing a good thing as a friend, think again.. What do you want from me? I have nothing for you.. Why do you care about what I feel? .. and towards you?? please.. you're not that important to me.. Friends will be friends, I'm very picky when it comes to friends.. the one I kept close to me is the one that can understand me and I can understand them.. I love my old friends because I know they understand.. they don't bother much.. none of us does.. we live in reality.. we know it's useless to say anything when we're far from each other.. that's why whenever we meet, we always have a good time together.. When we're not together, we live our life the way we want it to. We don't alter each other's ambition and we do help each other occasionally .. we don't push each other. When you know your friend got a commitment, give them room.. especially when it's personal. If they really want your help, they will ask you to help. If they don't then don't butt in because if you do, you're jeopardizing the friendship you have. For me thats how friends should be.